It has been a trying school year and I decided to get back in the land of blogging, thus, my voice is once again in "blog form" and can be heard by all of those who know and love me. A great deal has gone on this school year, from a miscarriage to most likely having the swine flu to a debilitating amount of fatigue that won't relinquish its nasty hold on me. A life filled with being tired and medicines that made me itch to trying out acupuncture and feeling a sense of self once more. I am happy in my skin, fatigued, but happy. I am looking forward to the next chapter in my life that is just around the corner.
Heather is turning seven on March fourth and I am truly amazed by her. I love everything about her and am so happy to call myself her mother. She is so well behaved and so kind along with being old for her age. I love that she and I are so close and hope to keep that closeness forever if at all possible. The exciting news for Heather is that she is going to attend Clinton Massie School district starting on Monday as this will help me and she will be with all of her friends in the neighborhood and be able to actually sleep in. Kevin will be in charge of getting her on and off the bus and I will be able to go to school without rushing Heather to school and trying not to be late.
So much in my life is happening and sometimes it feels like the world is having fun all around me but I am too tired. Just in case you didn't know, I am actually going to be retiring at the end of the school year under disability. I am very happy with my decision and know that I will finally be able to give of myself to my daughter and husband. I feel that they have truly missed out of the "true me" that only my students get to see. After much thought and realizing that I was too tired to teach and be a good mom, I am proud to say that I will be a stay at home mom, a good wife who helps her husband with his business and a writer. I am going to focus on my family and, if I am lucky, adopt a child. Kevin and I have talked to my doctors and all of them agree that the best thing for me is not to get pregnant due to the possible complications with my MS. But, as a woman who has MS, adoption is feasible. So, with a few prayers and saving my hard earned dollars, Kevin and I hope to adopt sometime in the next few years. People, mainly family, have looked at me and asked me if I truly think I am capable of taking care of another child and my answer is, "yes." I have way too much love in me and am totally capable of being an amazing mother. I have already proved that with Heather. She has turned into such a wonderful young lady.
So, for now, love to all of you and I will get back in gear, but mostly, I am tired and looking forward to summer. My doctors keep telling me that if I need to, just take a day off due to fatigue and even take off a week if I need to. As most of you know, I am a teacher and teachers can't just take a week off due to the children needing consistency. So, thank you for reading and hugs all around. Thank you for sharing in my world.
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